Read the book
OK, I am turning into one of those people who claim that their lives have been changed by one little book, or a movie, or a person. And this time it is a book with the stupidist title. Are you ready? "Healing Back Pain" by Dr. Sarno. Im telling you, it is the beginning of a new chapter in my life. No more stomach aches (that have been ailing me for 10 years), no more ankle or knee problems (that Ive had since childhood), no more headaches (all my life)... the list goes on. But what Ive learned about chronic pain is going to change the way I view the world. It all comes down to how we react to our environment and how it makes us feel and how we deal with those feelings.
Why did I develope chronic pain as a child?
Not because there was something physically wrong with me. No! Because there was anger and sexual repression and jealousy and fear and guilt and no other way to deal with it as a child because we werent taught to communicate and I wouldnt have felt anyone cared to hear about it anyway. So I protected myself from having to deal with it by getting attention for numerous other ailments. Maybe it all sounds like bologne to you, but I no longer believe that chronic pain has physical causes. Read the book and do the work and see what happens to you.
As for the rest of my life, outside of my latest books, life has improved 100%. Yes, I still burst into tears from time to time, missing my girls, billie and tizbie, and wondering how I will ever truly heal if I lose the man I was planning on marrying...
But it has been so interesting, the growth and processing Ive done this week.
I remember why I was so inspired by David when we were together. He is in dance school in Austria and has such a profound life plan. Now I can separate myself from him and realize that I am not him and have to find my own truths. Yet, somehow, just seeing another artist and dreamer reminds me why I had to do this. Why the struggle is worth it, and why I cant go back. And having a friend to listen and bounce ideas off of in a language I speak fluently was worth the whole cost of the plane ticket.
Austria is so beautiful and the air is crisp with mid-November in every breath. I feel so happy to be alive and am glad I didnt off myself last week when I couldnt see past my own pain. Sometimes I think I am so manic, but alas, that is life. And mine will be not only long, but wide (thanks Todd).
Have a great day, and email me with your thoughts after youve read the book. (but let me buy stocks in his ideas and work first so I can profit off it... just kidding).
Why did I develope chronic pain as a child?
Not because there was something physically wrong with me. No! Because there was anger and sexual repression and jealousy and fear and guilt and no other way to deal with it as a child because we werent taught to communicate and I wouldnt have felt anyone cared to hear about it anyway. So I protected myself from having to deal with it by getting attention for numerous other ailments. Maybe it all sounds like bologne to you, but I no longer believe that chronic pain has physical causes. Read the book and do the work and see what happens to you.
As for the rest of my life, outside of my latest books, life has improved 100%. Yes, I still burst into tears from time to time, missing my girls, billie and tizbie, and wondering how I will ever truly heal if I lose the man I was planning on marrying...
But it has been so interesting, the growth and processing Ive done this week.
I remember why I was so inspired by David when we were together. He is in dance school in Austria and has such a profound life plan. Now I can separate myself from him and realize that I am not him and have to find my own truths. Yet, somehow, just seeing another artist and dreamer reminds me why I had to do this. Why the struggle is worth it, and why I cant go back. And having a friend to listen and bounce ideas off of in a language I speak fluently was worth the whole cost of the plane ticket.
Austria is so beautiful and the air is crisp with mid-November in every breath. I feel so happy to be alive and am glad I didnt off myself last week when I couldnt see past my own pain. Sometimes I think I am so manic, but alas, that is life. And mine will be not only long, but wide (thanks Todd).
Have a great day, and email me with your thoughts after youve read the book. (but let me buy stocks in his ideas and work first so I can profit off it... just kidding).
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